Thursday, February 18, 2010

We Have an Appointment!!

After having trouble making a connection on MW I have turned my focus to clinics that may have embryos to donate. We have an appt with Dr. K on March 1st. I was am excited. I filled out a 16 page medical questionnaire. I miraculously found my medical records which I had buried after my failed rounds of IVF and the fiasco with NEDC. I just need to make copies and send them off and I am all ready for my appointment. I was told by one of the nurses we were #6 on the waiting list, assuming no one gets on the list before my appt. #6 isn't so bad. I gives me lots of time to get my body prepared for a baby. I just hope I don't have to have surgery before a transfer. I have a few endo cysts on my ovary. They go away when I start PIO so we will see what he has to say!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Something Came Up....

Disappointment strikes again. I remember how this feels from the first time we were pursuing embryo adoption after our rounds of failed IVF. Why is every setback so upsetting? I thought this time would be easier. I thought the desire and longing to have a baby would be lessened by the fact that we have a son already. I told myself that we have one, the rest of our kids would just be icing on the cake. I thought wrong. We had been talking with a donor couple on MW. They just told us that "something came up" and that they wouldn't be donating at this time. Quickly I scan all the emails to see if it was something I said. Who knows? I know its better that this happened now rather than further into the process. For that I am grateful.

My game plan now is to call around and find a clinic that donates embryos. This way I can get on a waiting list, if the clinic has one. While still waiting to make a connection on MW. Now if I could just remember where I buried all my medical records after our last fiasco with NEDC. This is my number one priority for tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

What to do...

I am starting to feel a little discouraged. Last time we posted our ad on MW we had people emailing us left, right and sideways. This time, I can't get one person to return my email. Is it because we have a child already or there are simply just too many great families on MW waiting for their miracle and so little donors? It will happen, I know it. Then I will be writing and wondering will it take?? I guess in the IF journey there are so many ups and downs. This all has me thinking I should rethink my strategy. I just need to stay focused and get my body ready to grow some embryos.